New chapter in my life

July, 2017

Finally, my time to get out of the house had come! I had to leave my hometown, Jakarta, Indonesia, to continue my study - bachelor’s degree. The country I have the opportunity to pursue it is in Singapore, I wanted Sydney but the campus there got closed. A country in which I had only gone to about 7 years ago. Basically, everything would be new to me, and this time it wasn't for travelling, instead, actually living in the country. I was excited! I am a kind of person who needs space of my own, freedom, enough space of freedom. I don't enjoy feeling like I am trapped or being in the same life routine for too long. It drives me insane. I’ve got to get out of my comfort zone, although it scares the hell out of me every time, but, I would feel so incredibly happy and awesome once I breakthrough that fear.

Anyways, I packed my luggages into 2 - half suitcases. I know, I know. It’s a lot for a student, studying abroad. But, I got my stuff, I feel like myself when I have my stuff with me. Like having my certain pencil cases, my comfortable clothes, my wallets, and more. I was damn ready for anything that’s ahead of me. Nothing really made want to stay home that time having with some problems we were facing in the family. At that point, I was only glad to leave. Now this makes me sound super selfish, but, it made me become someone I didn't even want to be. It brought the worst and the darkest side of me. And the worst part was that I started to actually feel okay and used to behaving that such way. I needed this Singapore college getaway if not, I would have become a miserable person.

Hence, I arrived in Singapore. A brand new chapter. A brand new book actually. Time went by. Found some new friends, hung out with some of my friends from back home, basically trying to search the bottom sand of the sea for me to stand on my own two feet. It was such a crazy, confusing, but good first few weeks. But I needed to find myself. I was lost in terms of having to be who I am with the people I surrounded myself with. I guess I was still trying to find those people who I could 100% be myself with at all times and just be happy. It was quite difficult. But it got me to where I am today. I had several friends whom I got to be close with and the next, we just grew apart and became such strangers. It made me learn so much out of people with many different types of characters. Sometimes, I realise that we do not have to even try to fit in at all because the people who you are supposed to be with are just there and it is part of the plan from the Lord above that you meet few other not good ones first before you get to the good ones. It taught me how valuable the good people are. Something that is instant will go away instantly. Something that takes time to built and get is worth at least a lifetime. That is not guaranteed either but, happens mosts of the time and I believe it.

Now, I am so glad I got the people that I have become close with. It is a proud thing for myself that I am the type of person who knows whats good and bad, what needs to be followed and what’s not a good influence. This way, I can stick to my own path. Don’t give me wrong, I am human, I have those days where I did get influenced and made the wrong decisions, but, I think that’s part of life. The thing is, after you made that wrong decisions, you gotta know that it was the wrong decision, analyse what’s bad and learn from it, then, take what’s good. By time, we will just be better and better at these things because you know what may come, and you have experienced it. Anyways, making mistakes is part of the life learning process and if we fear to make mistakes, it is just blocking you to freedom.

Although the first 3 months was quite a struggle for me in finding the right friends, keeping up with school work, adjusting myself with the country - I have learned the most of myself. I was my own friend. And there’s nothing wrong with that, because, I now know more about myself than before and you is who you can rely on at most times. Overall, I am glad to have the great opportunity to be here and experience the independent life of a student. I am ready to face on what's to come for me.

More chapters to come will be more about my journey and the people I have built a deep relationship with in specific. I am more than happy to share my life stories and hope it'll help and inspire anyone out there who may be facing the similar situations.

Thanks for reading! See ya!